Putting It All Behind Me

I think that few things stifle my creativity more than disappointment or grudge-holding.  If I've had a certain expectation and it is not met, or if I'm holding onto bad feelings, it's a sure killer of any positive actions.  I don't want to clean or do laundry or play with my animals because I'm having a pity party.  Thank goodness for friends who help me to see the error of my ways:  Holding onto bad feelings is like drinking poison and waiting for someone else to die.  

I was blessed to imbibe a multi-ingredient antidote to my bad attitude by making a visit to Mrs. G's Providence Farm. 

1. Nutmeg, my former goat, had kidded earlier in the week and we were able to pay our respects to her kids and congratulate her on a job well done.  
2. We watched the month old Freedom Rangers being their happy little chicken selves. 
3. I was astonished at how wonderfully hideous her Guineas are and look forward to watching my own pair grow into truly ugly polka dotted, vulture-faced adults. 

Brushing all my disgruntlement from me, like the dried mud on the backs of the pigs, we said our goodbye's with hugs and happiness.  I came home to my own mini-farm with a renewed sense of purpose and acceptance.  

I spent the day today making adjustments to the chicken house:  adding roosts for the new generation coming up, moving the baby chicks from my living room to the brooder side of the house, cleaning and readjusting the hanging feeders/waterers.  I cleaned up all the mess from my endeavours and filled the bed of the pickup twice with lumber pieces and empty pine/feed bags and assorted farm/household debris.  I was able to look at what I had accomplished with a clean spirit and a lesson learned:  The weight of ill will is crippling.  Instead of holding onto my heavy thoughts and paralyzing emotions, I should have 'rolled them on Jehovah' who is able to bear such burdens with ease.  (Psalm 37:5)

Rollin' yer burden.  Yer doin' it rong.